Reeeeecap!

Might I announce;

here is the recap of last post, to now!

^That is me, in the middle with miss aly and sara :)

When I say everyone looked gorgeous, I mean everyone looked BEAUTIFUL!<3

It was beyond an amazing night, one that I will never forget, I have to say I cried when it was my turn, after reading how my mother was my idol.

Yes, I bawled like a baby, :)

^^ and here is with the homecoming queen! Berkleigh! (:

Everyone was so sweet, and having so much fun.

Not to mention to craziness a long the way!

Hating my hair doo, couldnt get my dress to get tied up right, dang coresetsss!

I cried also when I caught my best friend whispering to her boyfriend, "Look how pretty she is" while I was on stage, BAWLED!

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NOW.

Helllllo, college applications,

Did I mention it is literally petrifying trying to figure out what you want to go in this world? especially when people are tugging you here and there, and then just everywhere?

Why hey there high school life! 

you are legit about to be the death of me;

love-

Shea<3

Something special from the heart

I am not going to be shallow, too outright bragging, or insensitive about this.

But I just got on homecoming court for my school! <3

only 10 girls made it, and I'm still honored that someone in the pile of kids in my year choose me when there is some great girls there.

I am SO excited!

Bring it on Homecoming of 2011!

:D

what kind of dress should I get?

Mr. Lund!

I think it is beyond time to explain someone that means the world to me.

This boy really makes me feel complete.

I say that with whole hearted feeling..

He is the only guy I ever felt so perfectly comfortable and myself with it's not even funny.

you have noooo, idea.

from wal-mart trips, Florida!, camping in the artic cold, frustrating google wars, too dealing with my major blonde moments, totally sneaking from work to see him, from complete 'shea' days, from moments I promised to never repeat, and most importantly never judging me when I was so wrong, or out of line.

Oh, did I mention he puts up with some of my bossy friends too?

gotta' love that <3

He in my eyes; = soulmate.<3

^^ senior pictures!

I KNOW there are times when we want to kill each other, especially when were cranky at night, but I would not have it any other way.

I don't know where I would be without him now!

Happy 5 months baby to the best boyfriend and person in my life.

<3

Turtle Tales :)

I OH so no how it's about dang time I took the time to visit

my sad and lonely blog.

but truly I was in too much of a chaotic mess to even manage my own life,

not to mention one on the computer, hehhh. ;)

I always viewed my blog as in me trying to express my hurt on certain things

(I should have gotten the hint that no one ones to see nor listen to anyone elses moping.)

or just me trying to say I was fixing myself of some sort.

I have a new train of thought now :D

-->I am finally perfectly fine as I am. <--

If someone wants to judge me, or not like me, thatts their problem.

No one is made to be what someone else wants them to be. :)

I want to make this blog into just my life,

not so much as caring who reads it or if I have this and this many followers

but more of my fun(:

N O .  I am not perfect. I won't type everyday, heyyy

I'm a senior in highschool, my minds barely here sometimes! ;)

But I can almost guarentee this year will be full of crazy/wild stories to tell. 

So welcome to my lifee!

<3

Here is my first story to tell;

me and my friend kristen went to go check on her boyfrans turtle that he saved while he was in florida..

(dont ask how we got in ;D)

well we set him free, in a fast river.

sad part is turtles CAN NOT SWIM in fast rivers!

so poor ol' Earl was just swimming his heart out drowning

while we couldnt do anything but watch :(

Earl, we wish you peace :)

My new life.

Girlssss we run this mother F****!

So the World...

Is EXTRAODINARY!

Just sayin.

;)

On the coast, watching the sun fall down

UPDATE;;

so for exactly about a month I havent been on just because everything has been beyond what I would have ever expected..

I have been dating Robert for over a month now, and he makes me happier then I have ever been. we've went camping, I see him about everyday, its so much more healthier and exciting then ever before. :)

I went to New York for 3 days and seen some of the most beautiful landmarks EVER, Ill post pictures soon :)))

My birthday is this sunday! on the 17th Ill turn 17, and Ill get to hopefully see my baby boy that day! <3

Me and my mom, we were once closer, were slightly drifiting again,

and I really dont understand why. :/

For the most part this has been the best spring break ever for me :)

This would last forever, but that was a past life.

Do you SEE his muscle.

Yeahh, hes a keeper ;D

John.

I dont understand Insecurity.

Not in the least bit. It sneaks up on you like a random bug bite. you keep scratching and scratching but it never quite goes away.

If we are all supposed to feel loved and treasured under Gods hands, then how come it can't last longer? Im not saying be all ego headed about it. However I dont get why cant you feel good just for who you are, just for a little bit?

For once. I would love to just love myself.

-Shea

Moss grows on trees, Mccoxs grow on weeds :)

&&^ I would like you to meet my best friend in this universe,

her names kristen :)

She knows how to make me smile when im crying

and pee on myself when she catchs me lying.

^? yes, I know. weird.

Let me just give you a catchup on our friendship..

my tampon stealing, 4 or 5,6th cousin that we can never seem to figure that out, bad ass cutting t-shirts, farting all the time in my car, kicking "ducky-chipmunks" ass, keying trucks, "oh nahh you didnt", sweet caring, twinkie loving, french speaking, country hick, screamo listening, grillz, rape running, playground stalkers, k3 killers, bitch slappers, hoe trampers, fire jackets, 'dont let my flower wilt', hooker in training, vampire diaries, spoon me!, gorilla cards, older-sister, my soul sister.

My best. friend. :)

I love youuuu!<3

Time for what I call a : Moment :)

High school goes by in one flashing moment.

you wake up one moment starting as a little freshman into a brand new scene. To walking to halls knowing just about everyone

(yes, that explains how tiny our school is. what do you expect for the mountains?)

Now, going through some of the turmoil I just went, and realized how strong life makes you, it makes me also realize how much people change!

Looking back, wow. is the only way I can possibly word it.

Shy, miss innocent to now a whole brand new prospective on life<3

love it!

Heres some things that have changed;

) I have a brand new appreciation for country music, JASON ALDEAN!<333

) I realize smiling at your enemys literally kills them with kindness.

) Boys will come and go, but your friends will help you kick their ass :)

) I realized what I want to become. no if an's or butts.

) I LOVE supercross! but im still ghetto girl at heart ;)

) Im getting back into my art, thank you GOD!

) my view on God has changed quite some. but only for the stronger.

) Im done trying to please people, love me for me. scuse' me but piss on you if you dont like me.

Things that are absolutely the same;

) I still think guys just want one thing.

) I still cuss like a freight train

) I still a awkward teenage girl, going through life with one hand on my head and the other on my heart, afraid that they're about to get out of control.

Shamberly Shea.(:

This is where I let out all of my love and happiness, hatred and anger through beautiful and inspiring photography.
So lets start this journey.

HEY THERE.

welcome to the new and refined Shamberly.

one who has shitty days, but is ready to handle it.

one who is ready for life as it hits me, which I know will be easy and hard at the same time.

if you don't like me. then I guess my life isnt for you.

but if you are...

welcome to the ride<3

its sunny today, while yesterday was rainy.

I have learned;

that no matter what,

- your going to want something someone else has.

no matter how much you pray. 

-somethings wont happen.

Just because you try

-doesnt mean you'll succeed.

Riding a dirtbike for the first time

-you will throw someone off.

Telling someone to give up,

- they eventually will.

Feeling sorry for yourself

- just only makes it worse.

Wanting people to like you

-does the opposite effect

Worrying more on appearances

-will and does make you look like a shallow slut.

Crying all the time

- will give you bags under your eyes.

No matter how hard you try,

- you cant just be friends with a guy.

That country music,

-brings a uplifting mood to me.

If you look for something

-it will not come to you.

THE ONLY PERSON THAT WILL EVER UNDERSTAND YOU.

-is you.

Racing Foxy Style.

SUPER CROSS.

Yes, I do know its a "man" word.

Burping beer, being redneckish, watching people get hurt on dirtbikes..

In Atlanta on the 26th,

not getting home till oh say about..3 in the morning?

Well hellllo boys, Me and a few friends are coming to your place,

because hey, what girl doesn't to watch a dirty, awesome dirt racing every  now and again? :)

I wish I could ride as good as them, I end up throwing everyone off!

-sheaXO

Breath, everythings going to be perfect.

I still believe in you no matter where you are in this world.

I will still every night pray you can still see clearly.

I promise I will always remember you.

I promise that you are beautiful.

I know your meant for something great.

It just might not be here,

or be the right time.

But...

"Pretty pretty please, don't you ever, ever think.

that your less than, fucking perfect, to me."

You are so worth every second.

Shopping spree in my wallet.

While I try to get my head more on straight, and not lose it.

Ill leave you with these goodies :)

-sheaxoxo

Sparkle, God loves you.

Well how the new classes have started!

And how I am so not ready for them!

I feel like its already a massive hurricane that has occurred in my book back.

sad day..

But first block?

RYAN. seriously?

Here are the guys that are passing through right now..

Obsessive one.

Anger one.

Hot Jack Ass Player

Never Get Over

Stalker

Nice One

Ghetto One

All these guys are just either Im friendly with, or actually like/liked

that are still in my life..

I got to ask, why does the pretty guys always end up the ones that destroy you?

One moment you speak, but the lies spill out.

So I have a problem..well more like a assumption.

Do you find it 'funny' to push people down when there already there?

Do you find it hilarious to physcially and mentally hurt someone?

when you see bruises. do you pretend like its not your fault?

when you lie, do you love blaming it on me?

when your the problem, its me the one that starts it.

Im the one that causes the fights,

Im the one thats changed.

you men across the world..

well personally. I think its YOU thats changed.

YOU that lies.

YOU that cannot make up your mind

YOU thats hurting people.

that is all.

Body Shots

"But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you"

So Im going to marry Taylor swift. suriously.

Theres this boy..and he sort of lets me feel like myself, he serenades me country songs, he gets dirty (not horny way), but he is sorta rocking my world..

and its scaring me shitless.

Im so not ready for another 'ryan' anytime soon, or anything near that, so what do I do? Because when I still see him whoring around with literally every girl he sees (no joke) and treats me like im some dust in the wind. this boy is stepping up. but I look at ryan and know without a doubt. hes it. the guy I want. the guy I need. but I shouldnt need.

Sorry, since I consider this my 'diary' Im letting it rolllll!

did anyone else have one boy that changed them whole-heartedly?

because I would love to hear how it effected you.

"Doing shots at the bar, body shots at the bar, my girls wanna try it, so were drinking like rockstars."

BEAUTIFUL. means something

I honestly can't explain if it was the two hour talk last night with ryans sister that put everything in perspective for me.

Such as I feel like a big burdens been lifted off my shoulders..

completely..

and all of the flaws I usually see?

My non flat stomach

my square face

my too big eyes

my crooked teeth

my chubby cheeks.

my low selfesteem

my pessimist-ism lately.

I looked at myself..

and you know what I thought?

Im Beautiful.

and truly. I never thought those words before.

I feel like this is a big step for me.

one that will help me realize I deserve better than whats been happening.

Best reason for a boy to say I like you..Ever

This right here made.my.day.

"I was honestly just not used to this, every girl I dated or liked threw themselves at me (<--eh, little conceited much? Ahah) and your different, you just blew it off like it was nothing."

"I'm not like normal girls"

"I think thats why I like you."

-Sagey, what we get ourselves into?:p

California, here we come

Have you ever watched Teen Mom and wondered..

what in the WORLD are they doing?!

Imm thinking that right now. poor babies! I have only seen about 3 girls who can raise there little babies.

I'll pray for you guys,kay.

Now, lets go on a magical journey..

TO THE BEST SHOW..ever created:)

called The O.C.

We've been on the run, driving in the sun, looking out for number one - California, here we come, right back where we started from...

The O.C. was a show that was on when I was just in middle school, and yes still watched and adored. 

And yes, it deals with alcohol, drugs, sex, and all of the above. 

but what doesnt anymore?

I just loved how real it was.

How crap can happen, but you can turn it around.

and helllloo! have you seen the man playing Ryan Atwood?

THAT should just make you want to watch the show itself!

Honestly, the first season was the best and then it went down hill to me when Marissa started dating psycho boy from her therapy class..

-but its definitely worth watching.

Me and mom just had a marathon the other nightt.

<3

Oh lovely, wont you realize your thrown off your high horse?

Snow snow..

you are really starting to aggravate me.

I love your flurry-ness. but when it gets to the point we cant get out of this

semester?

THEN YOU NEED TO GO AWAY!

Can I just say, Im going to marry jason aldean<3

I worked all week. 

Cleaned up, clean cut, and clean shaved. 

Got the cover off a '68. 

I fired it up, and let them horses sing. 

A little pretty thing. 

A little tan leg Georgia dream. 

She's a rockin' them holey jeans. 

Baby, what you got goin' on Saturday? 

This makes me think of the country down in Florida, and oh how I miss it oh so much.

&& Im also making a pack with myself(:

Through the rest of highschool. Im not going to date anyone. Only exception is if I find some guy that literally knocks me off my bossum;)

To me anymore guys take advantage of girls that are worth a shit,

so Im going to wait for the guy that proves to me hes worth the time :)

Lets take a walk in this new land, and smile

^I want her legs!(: