"lets make a big pot of friendship"

day 26- what do you think about your friends
this is about to get a little bitter-sweet..

Truthfully I have what I guess I would call a wide range of friends..and how they are.

some are crazy and ditzy, while some are really serious.

Ill give each of them nicknames instead of penpointing them :)

Frito- Im starting with you because you've been on my mind most of the day..

I say this because of a huge circumstance that you have gotten your self into silly, silly girl.

your super crazy. and I swear you feel like my long lost..weird sister sometimes. but hun your more than you put yourself out to be. dont use your assets because you dont think your good enough..

we all love you :)

Sister- I seriously dont know what I would have done without you these past..oh what? 12 years. I know we get under each others skins sometimes, and we want to murder each other..a lot. but I seriously would trust you with my life. when my world came crashing down, you saved me. I dont know if I would have been here without you, thats how much of a difference you have become for me. rather it be midnight phone conversations about our boyfriends or ex's. or helping out with family shit. I love you like no other.

Gummy bear- I love you. Plain and simple. all sorts of other douches in my life made me realize how much I dont want to lose you. no one seems to really understand you like I do. like everyone makes to many judgments. which is stupid since your not actually like your brother. even though sometimes Im scared you will become him. You've become my best friend. my go-to-to person. and with a guy I've never had that before. you make me want to be a better person. just to see you smile. I love you Ryan Gregory Hagler. 10 months and still goin <3

Regina- You are clumsy as hell. we just not started getting really close and I love that. I feel like I could tell you anything and not a peep would get out. thank you for being there for me. and us both witnessing some 'stuff' that we were like "0hhh shit no." I love you!

snugglepuff- you are one strange but loveable lady. we were so close and even when we drifted I could still come up and say random crap and we would die. your a hippie. your ADD. = love. I love how when we were younger we were obsessed with the jonas brothers. and to this day their still the background on your phone :p I love you a passion.

miss unicorn- I miss you SO FREAKING MUCH! you had to go all smart kidd and get into a prestigious school for smarty pants. with the mascot of unicorns. you are flipping a million miles away. and you were the "marshmellow" our smores as brooke calls it. I miss my harrypotter buddy. Come back!

Fejita- I didnt know rather to write this or not. but you are a very big part of my life. I talk to you about more personal stuff than probably anyone. you know me probably more than anyone personally wise. even though you and ryan literally have a major hatred towards each other, I still consider you super close :)

Blueberrysmuff- who finds abandoned houses on the mountain and realizes there unlocked? YOU! I love you deep. and I love that your so different from everyone mister. your my fat kid gone skinny bud. and we work out hella tons. pump that iron boy pump it ;)

Doesnt matter as long as you love me

Setting aside some actual blogging not on challenges or catching up. but just laying so good thought out thoughts out here. Thanks to reading Amber Rose's blog :) it got me thinking..

Has anyone ever felt like all your doing it running in circles, and you cant even catch your breath?

Maybe everything you thought to be was true...was a lie.

You lie to see who cares.

You make mistakes, and you wonder who wants to save you.

How looking into someones eyes sometimes can tell everything about them.

but then nothing at all.

How some of the best moments are the ones you tend to forget, and it kinda makes you nervous?

How you just want one person to really and truly care.

You wonder if your actually leaving a impression on anyone..at all?

Anymore, this thoughts tend to go through my head daily.

on a brighter note!

this was twin day on spirit week, and yeah..we failed.

its kristen me, and ashley, and tall boy in the back is ryan :)

yeahh hes a head taller (hehhh;D) 

phones, and money and chapstick, oh my!

day 25- what I would find in your bag
My bag is full of narnia.

you have prom ticket money, possible some burts bees chapstick, eyeliner, money holder thingy- pink!, a sandwhich -no joke, pens, phone, mirror, girly products, i-touch, string-you never know, and pictures of babe :)

I would take a picture of it. 

but everyones seen pictures of bags!

sooo..saving your eyes one picture at a time.

Dont say no when the fights hard

day 24- a letter to your parents
Dear Mom;
 We dont really get a long that much. but I love you none-the-less. you get me better than most and just looking at you sometimes it seems like you can read and understand everything Im thinking. we've been through some hard shit. and im sure even more is to come. but like I got you saying "lifes a bitch sometimes" even though you got mad when I randomly brought in a kitty. and all the drama my dating life and yours has brought in, it somehow mysteriously brought us closer than I could have ever imagined. Im also glad when I need to go in a deep twilight discussion I can always turn to you :)


*this is my little venting corner again. unless you want to read personal hatred with this. I advice skippy over it :)*
Dear Dad;
 I dont even really consider you my dad, nor do I want to call you Dad. but I just feel akward saying Chris. Your a liar, manipulative bastard, and cheater, and your not worth any breath to get mad over. thanks for my childhood a experience I wish I didnt remember. Mom defiantly deserves way better than you.(:

I hope you find what your looking for

Some re-cap action
day 1- recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
day 2- the meaning behind you blog name
day 3- a picture of you and your friends
day 4- a habit that you wish you didn’t have
day 5- a picture of somewhere youve been to
day 6- favorite super hero and why
day 7- a picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
day 8- short term goals for this month and why
day 9- something youre proud of in the past few days
day 10- songs you listen to when you are happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad
day 11- another picture of you and your friends
day 12- how you found out about blogger and why you have one
day 13- a letter to someone who has hurt you recently
day 14- a picture of you and your family
day 15- put you ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play
day 16- another picture of yourself
day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have
day 19- nicknames you have and why you have them
day 20- someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future
day 21- a picture of something that makes you happy
day 22- what makes you different from everyone else
day 23- something you crave for a lot
day 24- a letter to your parents
day 25- what I would find in your bag
day 26- what do you think about your friends
day 27- why are you doing this 30 day challenge
day 28- a picture of you from last year and now, how have you changed since then?
day 29- in this past month, what have you learned
day 30- your favorite song

day 23- something you crave for a lot

I constantly crave food. like..im a fat kid at heart. I stay determined to lose weight and keep it off. but lord knows if I didnt. I would be a spokes person for mcdonalds.

*not meaning any disrespect towards anyone*

 I also crave pretty boys ;) buttt not in the "thats what she said!" type of way.

they just make my day

mmmm, abercrombie <3

spirit week is this week!

Monday; twin day. tues.; tacky day. wed.; college day. thurs.; retro day. friday; black out!

:)

Bring it on College Day! Go Gators!

Life is kicking me in the tush

so with all thats going on, Im still doing that day by day challenge. butttt instead of catching up on like 20 days when I come back. Ill just pick up where I leave off. Ooops :/

day 22- what makes you different from everyone else

I guess everyone thinks something about them is 'special' compared to others. or that no one is like them. but truthfully someone does have a trait you thinks different. 

well, I guess what I like about myself so to say is I can put myself in other peoples shoes. say Im fighting with someone and I only believe Im right I can see from their point of view and see I could be wrong. not be biased about it.

and, I also cant stand to let people be sad because of me. Ill try my best and put a smile on your face even if im hurt.

*venting* -you can just skip over this :)

I feel like ive been really slack with the blog and commenting others. which I love doing so so much. but real life is taking its hit again. one of my once friends and me got in a fight fight. with almost hitting involved. (this is the friend whos sister with my boyfriend..yeahh, right.)

and even though it wasnt my fault. like I said I hate that we fought, and I just wish things didnt happen the way they did. even though things needed to be said.

A moment smiling is a moment gained

 Day 21- a picture of something that makes you happy

S.S.challengeeee.

x.x.o.o :)

Life gets hard

day 16- another picture of yourself
day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have
day 19- nicknames you have and why you have them
day 20- someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future
I made a boo-boo and forgot when I recapped the days the other day..to do the challenge of that day :p that all just confused me. so I totally understand if no one else didnt get that. hah
and then work, dealing with leaving a team, school work all caught up on me, so I went MIA. AGAIN. :/
Lets fix that.

day 16- another picture of yourself

day 17- someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

I never really think about this..but if I had to choose someone, I guess vanessa hudgens. just because she gets zac efron ;D orrr whoevers dating taylor lautner. id be perfectly peachy keen with that too ;)

day 18- plans/dreams/goals you have

Hmmmm..I would have to say a big one I have is going to Florida college in Jacksonville to stufy psychology and social work. Or just get in college period, ha. 

Find someone I really care about, and them care about me. allll of those type of things.

Keep up with old friends, and make new ones along the way. 

Pretty much; just make a life for myself, without having to depend on others.

there we go :)

day 19- nicknames you have and why you have them

This will be a long one!

My first and middle name is Shamberly Shea --->

Shea Shea

Shamrock-from "the" first guy 3-3 years ago.

Shea butter- from him^ and jesse lane this  year 

gummy bear- ryan<3 and he's my gummy worm

penguin- I dont even know. I just know im called penguin and ryans called giraffe

shorty- I think that one explains itself :p

goober, ding dong. - I dont know.

day 20- someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future

Uhm. Im 16. not 25. So someone I might want to be with right now next year I might not even be dating..sooo I would say being with in the future Ryan, but would I wanna get my hopes up then bye bye? nah thanks.

S.S Challenge.

Ive really failed on this one. but im still keeping at it. :)

I do this all the time, I try to stay in comfort zone, when I could be doing so much more if just taking risks with things Im not used too

Lordddd. life keeps getting harder and harder.

please help!

Im back in the 'building'

So I've been sort of MIA. and it was muchly needed. yes, muchly.
I'll catch up with all the days right now :)
I just want to say thanks for all the sweet comments..they make my day.. I know blogging is about expressing yourself sort of like your own online diary. but its sweet to think someone is possibly taking the time to read it. so thankyou!
day 11- another picture of you and your friends
day 12- how you found out about blogger and why you have one
day 13- a letter to someone who has hurt you recently
day 14- a picture of you and your family
day 15- put you ipod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play

Day 11;

me and kristen were at walmart taking one of those moto powered old people scooters and riding around, we got some lookers ;)

Day 12;

I found out about blogging from looking up twilight on google and got this blog..

well like I said I had a obsession with twilight, well this blog is none other but Lauren from busybeelauren.blogspot.com and I thought it would be neat after looking at different blogs to give it a shot.

so thats exactly what I did ;)

Day 13;

This one will be really interesting *for the persons name I will use miss. itch.*

Dear miss itch;

I seriously really dislike you. for the past two and a half years you have made my life hell. Ive worked hard to be enough for you, but its never good enough for you. oh, and while I'm at it, thanks for pulling me out of class to tell me how useless I am to you. and how I'll regret everything, nah. only thing I regret is putting up with your sorry ass for that long. 

ps. learn how to wear eyeliner, kayy?

Day 14;

This is sad, but I dont have a recent picture of me and my family..

were different.

Day 15;

1) Imma star!

2)  Successful by drake

3) It's you 

4) Center of attention by mayday parade

5) Heels over head

6) A mess it grows

7) Breath Me

8)Because of you

9) Animal I have become

10) 2 step

Cap up from the past few days!

I have a kitty..yeah.

I get to miss my friends surprise party and the other ones coming back party :/

Im yearbook editor!

I did good on SAT scores. 

and Im catching up on hw.

talked to a guy I havent in forever talked too.. it was nice.

and drama, drama drama..

S.S challenge-

well since I posted all of those pictures Sunday, I think that should count as some of my days ;) so heres just two..

^this is just to represent Im the old fashion romantic.